really.

I've been receiving a lot of messages similar to the following lately:

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From: Anonymous
Date: Jul 28, 2008 12:16 AM


You are gorgeous. You seem real too thats weird for california...

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From: dan!elle
Date: Jul 27, 2008 2:38 AM

Thank you!

And you are right. People like me are a rarity in OC.

People are afraid to be themselves. I'll never wonder who i am later in life, like so many of the plastic people will, someday.

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The subject of what it means to be real, has got me thinking a lot lately. I receive messages saying, "you seem real," "you don't look like you're stuck up," and other similar things. I honestly don't know what makes me appear different from other girls. If you have any idea, please enlighten me.

With all the blonde haired, blue eyed, big boobed, tan, OC girls out there. What sets me apart as "real." I'm convinced looks have very little to do with it. Is being real essentially in the attitude of the individual?

What is society coming to when finding a girl who is "real" is an anomaly? Why do women feel the need to be someone they are not? What makes me any different from the others?

Why can it be assumed, though looking at my MySpace page that i am in fact real? I'm like any other OC girl, right?

This is how i see it...... If you casually take a look around MySpace, you are likely to find pages and pages of girls who feel the need to prove how often they get drunk and that they have tons of friends. I, on the other hand don't feel the need to prove anything. A few months ago I dramatically reduced the info available on my page. I don't need to prove anything to anyone. Yes, I am a huge music fan, but I no longer need to give the detailed list of what bands I know or like. I don't need to prove through excessive photos how much i drink or party or that i can pull of a ridiculously skanky outfit if i want to.

In no way am i saying I'm better than anyone else. I just want to know what sets one girl apart from the rest, when it comes to being true. Maybe the people who send me these messages say that to everyone.

My advice for anyone teetering on FAKE:

LIVE your life NOW. Stop trying to create an image of yourself, which may not be true. People will take notice when you stop trying so hard to be like the rest of the pack. You will never have to look back and wonder what life could have been like if you just hadn't tried so hard.